Thursday, May 28, 2009

living in a myth


Who am i and where am i headed? Why do i feel lost and what am i looking for.

These are the quintessential questions that i ask myself everytime i am faced with a road block in my life. Why do i question life each time that i am faced with a problem. Why is it that when everything is going well i never ask myself these perennial questions unless i am sad and having trouble dealing with my existence. Howcome i never question life then, when i am happy travelling in the mountains and looking at the wonders that the nature has in abundance for me. All i do at that time thank god for giving me a beautiful life and a fabulous existence. I feel from deep within that everything will fall into place and the song ' Every little thing" by Bob Marley hums in my head while walking down the winding paths with village kids.

But the moment am stuck in my life in the city, heartbroken and not enjoying my job, these questions come back to me and haunt me. Why???

Do i really want to know where am i headed or do i even care how long the road is ...as long as i can see the road in front of me and i know i am protected...today as i sit back and think. I dont.

I dont care what my destination is going to be as long as the journey is beautiful and interesting. I dont really care who is going to be with me in the end till the time i know that i wont be alone for a single minute in my journey. I will always have someone to sings songs with, or share a cigarette with or share a laugh with in the journey of life. I will never be alone, as long as i am open to explore and travel and see places beyond my imaginations.

The road calls me and i follow it.